So a few months ago there was a show with the theme "Is This What I Look Like?" It started with one of the producers going into a makeup store and the employee observing that her face was two distinctly different colors. They talk to a few other people who had moments where someone made an observation about them that wasn't an insult, but they just didn't realize that others noticed or they hadn't noticed themselves. One of the girls shared that her boyfriend told her she had club toes!
I was thinking about a few times that people have pointed out things in my life that I didn't realize were super noticeable. I've been pretty lucky because this hasn't happened a lot, especially because the age of the students I work with tend to be real honest, haha. However there have been times like when my student told me that I don't do my makeup "good" which I realized, he was totally right!! Haha! Another one I get a lot is about my huge dimple on my left cheek. Like, not a cute gerber baby dimple. A weird dimple that looks like I have a bruise in a lot of lighting. So many people in my life have been like "Oh my gosh! What is that bruise from?" However, it's just a quick conversation, "No, it's not a bruise it's a weird dent in my face and I just don't know why so let's move on." Plus I am not really self conscious about it so I don't spend a lot of energy on being annoyed.
So yeah, I was listening to this podcast and laughing at these stories but thinking that they would never happen to me, not on the scale that these people were sharing. Then I went shopping on Friday.
I was in a store that is a secondhand shop, an upscale Plato's Closet if you will. I began shopping just like normal. I had been shopping for only a few minutes when the manager of the store came over and said something like "I have something to say to you, and I don't want it to sound bad but as you've probably noticed, we don't have a lot of stuff in your size."
My stomach kind of dropped, I was so confused. I was hurt for a pinch of a second. I know that i'm not a skinny minnie (as my Mom says) and heavens knows that I have gained a lot of weight in the past year. However, I worked pretty hard at the gym this summer and lost a little weight!
I don't really know what to say, i'm absolutely not fishing for compliments, I just wanted to share because it was just one of those life moments that grinded the usual day to day stuff to a hault. Good or bad, I was just like....LIFE, YA KNOW!?
Haha, obviously I am feeling super eloquent today.